To be or not to be?

I've been asking myself that exact question since I woke up this morning. To be on sick leave or not... (big sigh)

I'm not sick, physically, but I'm not feeling well emotionally and psychologically. It has to do with something at work. I just need to escape from all things and people in there and the only way to do it is to be on sick leave.

It is in these times that gets me thinking if I should pursue a career in cooking or books which are two of my greatest passions. It also made me regret my decision to choose practicality over passion while I was deciding what course to take in college. Apparently, taking up Information Technology opens a lot of opportunities and is more practical than taking up either Library Science or Hotel and Restaurant Management. And Culinary Arts is too expensive.

I know that I tend to curse (saying "ahak") when irritated and angry or just having fun. And today, I'm not happy. Cursing without the people you curse in front of you is such a waste of effort and I don't want to befoul the air in my room for a nonsense and useless cause. So I'll just rant in the web. Or I could do this: read a book and forget about all things happening around me; the feelings of disappointment in my heart and the evil thoughts inside my head. And maybe go home to my parents for comfort and love.

That's it. I'm going home and read a book...

Maybe I'll bring my new book (The Graveyard Book by Neil Gaiman) if ever I would finish reading Eldest by Christopher Paolini during this weekend.

And to end this entry in a happy note, I'm sharing one of my favorite quotes...

"Be who you are and say what you feel, because those who mind don't matter, and those who matter don't mind."
— Dr. Seuss